that weird feeling

well it has been officially 4 1/2 months since i have gone to the hospital. wow it feels good to say that! for the most part im feeling really good. i am exercising a lot and feeling very strong! the lungs are up and knock on wood- NO PROBLEMS RIGHT NOW. i do have these weird feelings, pain and lots of discomfort from day to day. not sure what is going on but they always seem to work their way out. i mean i guess im supposed to feel weird --- your lungs are not supposed to be glued to your ribs!!! it is increasingly difficult to not be able to do the activities i love so much. twice in the last week or so i have been asked to join a hockey team and i kickboxing group. surprised that these people think i would be good at these :) but saddened to know i could no more do those than fly to the moon. i even got wore out when my sis and i went dancing last night. something i could have done a year ago for hours and not even thought twice. so let me ask how do you have so many things taken away and still feel like you have so much? it is a difficult thing to do.