why wont they listen????

the doctors and nurses, techs and specialists all think im crazy! they think im a hypochondriac, a drug addict and more. so today i had to have a MRI of my brain. a week ago i was paying bills and suddenly could not read anything. i could see all the words on the screen. i even recognized most of them but was unable to sound them out. i freaked out to say the least. but after an hour or so i was OK. i could read again! i had a headache for 8 hours but other than that no problem. but the docs think i could have an aneurysm or had a stroke. ha ha like i need more drama. anyway back to the MRI. i tell the doc that i have terrible veins and that good luck getting an IV in. he tells me he is a pro at this after 30 years not to worry. well 2 pokes later with me crying no good needle in the arm. he says he cant understand it and calls in some head nurse to poke me. she gets it in but not before im totally crying and in pain. i mean do they think im making this up. hey you cant get an iv in. like i want a challenge or something. IM NOT A PIN CUSHION!!!! I WANT A NEW BODY .......MINE IS BROKEN!! and can the new body come with some boobs?

that weird feeling

well it has been officially 4 1/2 months since i have gone to the hospital. wow it feels good to say that! for the most part im feeling really good. i am exercising a lot and feeling very strong! the lungs are up and knock on wood- NO PROBLEMS RIGHT NOW. i do have these weird feelings, pain and lots of discomfort from day to day. not sure what is going on but they always seem to work their way out. i mean i guess im supposed to feel weird --- your lungs are not supposed to be glued to your ribs!!! it is increasingly difficult to not be able to do the activities i love so much. twice in the last week or so i have been asked to join a hockey team and i kickboxing group. surprised that these people think i would be good at these :) but saddened to know i could no more do those than fly to the moon. i even got wore out when my sis and i went dancing last night. something i could have done a year ago for hours and not even thought twice. so let me ask how do you have so many things taken away and still feel like you have so much? it is a difficult thing to do.